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Thursday, November 23rd, 2006
3:44 am	I've been meaning to say this for a while now, and I hope everything comes out ok. I once was a person, who had a strong sense of self. That man is dead. Most of you knew me as someone else. A selfish, manipulative and deceptive person. Someone controlling and power hungry. A man who lived too much in the past and the present, and hardly enough in the future. He who caused so much pain to so many people, and ripped apart so many beautiful things. It took a lot of pain to open my eyes. And I'm thankful for the light that broke apart those dark clouds. But I'd like everyone to know me as I am now, Not how I was, or how you think I will be. Know me for the good things you remember, And the good things you'll soon see. I am a loving, caring person. Relentlessly devoted to those I love. Devout in my resolve. Committed to never giving up, as long as light still shines in the sky. I made a pact with our Creator, to devote whatever is left of my wretched life to doing good, if he would help me. He did. I intend to keep my word. If you had the heart to read these words, that were so close to my soul, please show me your support by replying: "I believe in you". (7 traitors | fall into my deception)
Saturday, October 7th, 2006
3:25 pm	Borrowed. Write eleven statements, Intended to different people. Things you've always wanted to tell people. PS: Theres only two boys on here. WOW. 1) Remeber that you can always move on to better things. Exit out the back and make your getaway. 2) I hope you're still here someday. I hope we're still close or closer. Maybe we'll even be in another world.. 3) You're the queen of mixed signals. I wish I could resist you far more than I already do. 4) God have mercy on your soul for the things you have done. 5) You're like a rock among mere pebbles. A stalwart example of how things should be. 6) Sometimes I think you barely realize the implications of the things you do and say. Sometimes I think you thrive on conflict. 7) You are purehearted beyond belief. Kinder than kind. I'm so happy we're still this close. 8) You barely know my name and you barely know my face, but I still think you're wonderful. 9) How did we end up on the same side. I'm definately not complaining. 10) You're really far away now. What happened to finishing Act 5H? 11) You're my bright morning star. I only see you in the morning after all. If you showed up with your hair down, we might not sleep tonight. 12) What happened to our place among the stars? (10 traitors | fall into my deception)
Thursday, August 17th, 2006
5:30 am	Save yourself. The only thing that matters is that you get away from the pain and the thought of losing your mind. (1 traitor | fall into my deception)
Friday, August 4th, 2006
5:46 pm	Nothing is the same. Everything I used to like and love, is foreign to me. Wake me up from this nightmare. Reedemer please. Save me. (1 traitor | fall into my deception)
8:08 am	Have not eaten in two days. Slept about 2 hours a night. Restless sleep. Many nightmares. I'm not ok. (fall into my deception)
Thursday, August 3rd, 2006
4:44 pm	I feel so fucking terrible. It feels empty, in my whole body. It's like I'm hungry, but I'm definately not hungry. It feels like I have to vomit, but theres nothing in my stomach anyway. Feels like a dull, dull ache, that is just painful enough to always remind you that its there. This must be hell. I seriously believe that wallowing in a flaming pit would be less painful than this. I wish this was all over. (fall into my deception)
12:48 pm	I walk alone. Pure blackness drips down from the sky, On a day that was ment to be uneventful. Damp nightmares fall into still beating hands, Praying for pentinence, like a test of faith. There is no god here, In this swirling haze. Only pain, and disbelief, Exist in this syndrome. Hurting will soon become your deity, When you find yourself all alone. Walk to the edges of this plane, And you will find no one. Shivering as the cold stale air, Hits the back of your spine. There is no end in sight. The horizon will never get any closer. If you live for pain, then pain lives for you too. And you will walk alone. Forever. Until warmth returns to this world. Eternal. And if not, you'll stop hoping. Never. (fall into my deception)
Friday, May 13th, 2005
4:22 pm	Jesus, check out what the heck we've done in our 6 days back. www.criesofinsurrection.com (4 traitors | fall into my deception)
Thursday, December 16th, 2004
11:13 am	What the fuck is this? Diablo 3?? (11 traitors | fall into my deception)
Tuesday, December 7th, 2004
11:00 pm	I'm not purging this town of you, Not unless we go someplace better, Together. Your worth is in yourself, And I wouldn't change that. Not for all the gold in Ogrimmar. (fall into my deception)
Monday, November 29th, 2004
9:07 pm	I found the Diet Coke bottles from "you know when". I miss times like that, so much. (fall into my deception)
Wednesday, November 10th, 2004
1:45 am	Dear you, You have no clue how much I fucking miss you right now. Lonely, Me (fall into my deception)
Saturday, October 30th, 2004
1:01 am	Wow. <3 (1 traitor | fall into my deception)
Tuesday, October 19th, 2004
10:37 pm	Dear you I see the hope, in the back of your eyes, That cries when you think about saying your goodbyes. And even when you struggle, as hard as you can, I'll remind you of how this all began. The broken past, Gave way to a bright new contrast. The realization, that this could be perfect; Even though the past failed to connect, The needs, of both of us, to be free, From the false boundaries, Of concepts, that we didn't even believe in. Our nervous nature gave way to hope. As our wishes sheltered in their own scope, And we cuddled the days away. And regardless, of how impossible the future might seem, The present has the power to overcome the extreme. And every sign, That I know you can see, Points to a feeling, That I know you'll find healing. “We'll spend it together”, Is all you have to say to yourself. The soothing nature of the future will recall, That it’s just you and me, after all. The end might come tomorrow, And I'll love you stronger than ever. I share your concept of "forever". I'll be by your side on this endeavor, Tomorrow is just a little later on. With love, "forever", Me (fall into my deception)
Saturday, October 9th, 2004
4:12 pm	I have butterflies in my stomach. <3 (7 traitors | fall into my deception)
Thursday, September 23rd, 2004
2:04 pm	Rap Songs Decoded. http://www.livejournal.com/community/dear_you/8038568.html#cutid1 (fall into my deception)
Wednesday, September 22nd, 2004
6:21 pm	It's hard to go on sometimes, without your strength (fall into my deception)
Monday, September 13th, 2004
11:10 am	I feel like I could die at any moment. Go here for the brief scope on why my Save Vs. Death check is about to fail: http://www.drdaveanddee.com/headache.html (2 traitors | fall into my deception)
Wednesday, September 8th, 2004
10:07 pm	( Kissing Survey! ) (7 traitors | fall into my deception)
Thursday, August 12th, 2004
12:26 am	Do you know how fast love can travel a hundred miles? Instantly (1 traitor | fall into my deception)